If you’ve ever experienced a debilitating illness you know there is nothing more important than getting your health back. I know this first hand after battling ulcerative colitis and a gut/brain axis issue for more than 9 years.
There came a point when no doctor, no drug, or treatment plan was curing the illness within my body. I was also given the option of surgery but I knew that wasn’t the answer either.
For years I constantly strived to be cured. I tried every diet, supplement and treatment plan that I was aware of at the time and nothing worked. I was exhausting myself with little to no results.
After experiencing inescapable suffering, I began to try a different approach. I surrendered to the dis-ease in my body and began to listen to what my symptoms were trying to tell me. As I began to embrace the practice of meditation, which is to simply be with the mind and body just as it is. I began to let go of trying to be cured and began to find healing within the stillness of being. The truth of how I came to be this way started to make its way to the surface of my consciousness. I experienced healing.
I began to relate to the dis-ease in a new way. Instead of pushing it away and causing more suffering, I began to see it as my teacher. It wasn’t something I had to get rid of, it was a cry from within my cells in which I had to answer, and learn to hold in loving awareness.
My body was telling me something. It was saying I needed to slowdown, take better care of myself and address the underlying residual trauma from childhood that was still lurking in the dark cellar of my unconscious mind.
As I began to listen to its message and it’s means I had a shift in the way I related to the illness. I started giving the illness space and resting in the unknown outcome of my prognosis. I started listening to the soft whispers from within and began to follow the signs that the universe was giving me.
At the time, I “coincidently” crossed paths with Dan, my best friend from high school’s uncle. I know now that there are no coincidences. Dan was a terminal cancer survivor who left main stream medicine after chemotherapy, radiation and a bone marrow transplant that failed to treat his cancer. Dan recommended I read a book called “Primal Body Primal Mind”. I was so moved by the book I called the author directly to consult with her but she was too busy. So she referred me to Dr. Kari, a functional medicine doctor that played a very intricate part of treating the ulcerative colitis and gut/brain axis issue that I was dealing with at the time. As I began to let go even deeper and trust the process, more synchronicities would happen that would lead me to the next step to take along my healing journey.
There’s no right or wrong along the healing path. Every situation is an opportunity to learn, grow and surrender to what is happening in the present moment of life. We cannot force this process it must flow naturally. Sometimes we will make strides forward and begin to feel great and at other times our symptoms will return. When this happens we may feel like we are back at the beginning of where we first started, but we are not. We have gained resilience, wisdom and strength from facing the challenges along the path to healing.
Healing is a journey. It’s about hanging out in the unknown and trusting the process. It’s quite different form curing. In curing there is often the energy of “doing,” in healing there is the opposite energy, the energy of “being”. In curing we are often trying to get somewhere and make something happen. In healing we hang out in the unknown. We begin to navigate each moment right where we are in the present. Trusting that the process is unfolding as planned and we will learn the lessons that our pain is trying to teach us.
Healing is our birthright, we all have the right to heal.